Another Month gone by...

     Well friends, here we are.  On the cusp of June and summer, and I weigh more now than I did at the beginning of the year.  Son of a bitch.  If you'll pardon my language.  I weigh more, not much more, but more.  I feel awful about my food choices and I only exercise when I'm lifting and twisting and walking and shelving at work.  I just feel so overwhelmed by my bad decisions.  I feel like I've gotten to a point where I can't go back to where I once was.  I saw some pictures of my 9th and 10th grade self, and I was beautiful and fit.  I had curves, but they were in the right places and they stopped when they should have.  How do I get back there?  How did I get here?  I'm still trying to fight myself and answer my questions.  I joined sparkpeople.com , a site devoted to helping you reach your weight loss goals through a community of people, tips, and menus.  Keep your fingers crossed.

 Oi. I look at my list, and think about how hopeful I was to start it back in January.  Now, I'm just feeling sad and disappointed in myself.  I need to start fresh.  I need to have faith in myself.  One week from today, Monday, June 1st, I will be back to update this again, with a better attitude, and having made better choices.  'Til then...